Plenty of happenings today... I was happiest at my job and also the most upset in my relationship. My bosses praised me for my work performance and I had my first cold war with him.

Today's meeting was one surprise, I was quite sure that my big boss will shoot me again as she did in every meeting. But she praised me today instead. Hmmm... Even my boss also said that she is very pleased with my performance. It was a very motivating moment for me, I was happy and at the same time I worry that my colleagues will feel threatened and jealous. Sent 13 resumes yesterday and big boss dropped me an email saying that she is very impressed with the no. of resumes I sent out. I only came across this email after our meeting, so I was kinda in a slacking mood till about 3plus. Plus I was having a little cramp and all... only started sourcing for candidates when I only have a couple hours left.

Just when the clock strikes six, one of my clients called to arrange for one of my candidates to start work. I was so happy and I get about doing the arrangement. Ding dong between my candidate and the client for about half an hour to 45 mins then the candidate tells me that she is giving this opportunity a miss. Damn kuku lor, waste my time, effort and saliva. Most importantly I have been keeping him waiting all these while. After hanging up the last call I had to send my reports and everything, by the time I reached our usual spot he had already waited for almost an hour and was fuming mad.

I apologized and tried to explain to him but he gave me a nonchalant expression and stood a distance away. I was feeling hurt, confused, upset and even for a moment, angry. And he stood further and further away from me until we reached our destination, he just walked out without even looking at me or telling me. I was so so so upset, I was talking to Val and telling her that I feel like crying, but I will be strong, I have been acting tough and I can do it but tears were welling in my eyes and I forgot to replenish my tissue supply...

Didn't really talk to him much after that cos I was still feeling upset and also thinking of all the things I wanted to tell him as well as telling myself that I don't have a right to get angry cos it was my fault in the first place for making him wait. I would also be pissed if I have to wait for someone for almost an hour and this is not the first time I made him wait for me to knock off. We don't have the mood to eat so we went to get a drink and after some silence he walked off the f**king 2nd time. I was like WTF, how many times you want to walk out on me in a day?

I was contemplating to take a cab home but ya, I'm still into the boycott cab campaign. I was thinking of other alternatives to get home but was lazy to walk so I decided to head for the interchange hoping that he wouldn't catch me. But he was standing there waiting so I couldn't pretend to miss him and it would not be nice to do so either. So I told him that I want to go home and he just grabbed me. At that point of contact I already melted by substantially and so we managed to make up from there. If he hadn't grabbed me, I would have left already and I would super hate him for walking out on me and not holding me back. Then I would have ignored him from then on. And I was thinking, is our relationship really so weak that we can't even pass a hurdle?

I'm so glad that I didn't choose to ignore him today cos I really care about this relationship and I'm glad that things worked out for now. I think it's either I really love him super a lot or I am more matured now and handle situations in a more rational way. As I was saying, he is so pampered that I think all my other exs will be super jealous.

Time check, 11.30pm. Time for bed. Super tired after such a "happening" day.